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i had a revalation today
i am not very good looking...peopel have always said my brother and my dad are good looking people, but does anyone ever say im good looking? and why do people always laugh when i make jokes about being "gorgous" i know its a joke but obviously they realize i am not good looking wich is wat makes it funny i guess...it sucks, and then i read about all these hot guys at mont cascade and this mildy atractive guy on the bus and its like FUCK no one cares about whats on the iside anymore, thats all i have goin for me! who wants to love someone that takes up the whole side walk and looks liek he got smacked in the face with a 2-by-4 a few to manny times.

NO ONE

no one likes people for the insides anymore and its dumb, i used to not care about my looks cause i was funny, careing and nice but now none of that matters its just who is hottest, and its pissing me off! how am i suposed to compeet with the other guys my age! The Jocks, The Ladys men, The ugly guys who actualy arent ugly just my imagineation(:S)

GAHHHH it sucks so much balls

i hate being this stupid ugly fat nerd and i hate when i look for shirts i have to get the large while my brother is trying on the super-smalls. and i hate that while i have a nice well develpoped gut, my dad has the biggest biceps and the most chizzled abs ever! i feel so adopted! and my mom is relly skinny and rlly pretty too!
am i even from this family,

prlly not.

sometimes i just wanna stop eating..
i tell my slef, ya ill go for a bike ride today
ya ill go work out
yah ill do more then sit around and eat...

none of that happens...

im gonna be fat and ugly for the rest of my life...

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